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are you wearing that? by Subrina Heyink
It's not me, it's you (Me to every pair of jeans and trousers, except that one pair!)

It's not me, it's you (Me to every pair of jeans and trousers, except that one pair!)

Despairing, hope and embracing imperfections

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Jan 17, 2023
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It's not me, it's you (Me to every pair of jeans and trousers, except that one pair!)
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I do not have a single pair of trousers that fit me exactly how I like, and this ensuing sadness has been recorded as the second Great Depression. I sound dramatic, which I usually am, but it's true.

I have cried a lot about not having the right pair of jeans and good-fitting trousers because what else am I supposed to wear? And, more importantly: How am I supposed to continue living? After having a child, I transitioned from mini leather skirts to trousers and jeans out of necessity, and begrudgingly, I am back to figuring out how to wear skirts and dresses again. In my first year as a mum, I collected many good pairs of vintage Levi's and many good tailored and casual trousers that I have sold, donated, or lost track of in my many moves. 

Before saying goodbye to my last and most beloved pair of vintage Levi's in 2018, I spent six months searching on eBay — usually at 2 a.m. because this was when I decided it was time to fix my life by looking for the perfect jeans. I didn't find a replacement in time, and they ultimately kicked the bucket, and I spent another eighteen months searching after laying them to rest from earthly labor. The final resting place was the trash. 

The pair in question is one I have shared here and on my IG many times, so I know you know which I am referring to. During my two-year search, I bought around 25 pairs on eBay that were never quite right, but I still kept a few to "make them work.” That only contributed to my despair. Here's what made this pair perfect:

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